Drowning

As Tonya says it is a huge ordeal that we all go through - and it is "nut house" material.  So far, by my own admission, I have faired okay on the emotional side of things.  However today I had to "just get out of the four walls".  I went and spoke with a store owner who I know - she is making huge decisions in her work.  I was able to be distracted and was a set of ears for her.  I think I was even constructive!!!!  Even though I don't think that I will be able to return to work (too much pain and arm restrictions), I know that I still need "something" to keep me on track.    At this point I have to be very mindful of how I manage my pain as I think this could be a deciding factor that might put me "over the edge".  When I read that you have been working during chemo I thought WOW how did she do that!!!!  Sometimes I think that we try to be Superwoman.  I just want my energy back to be able to achieve things!!!!!  Please keep coming online so that we can "share" with you.  Best wishes XLeonie