Down days
It's funny that almost 12 weeks down the track, almost halfway through chemo I feel like I am finally processing this shitty situation.
And I am scared shitless.
I don't want this shadow following me ...
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It's hard to be upbeat when you feel so dreadful so just wallow in it for awhile. It doesn't hurt to be a sook,helps to release that emotion that builds up. You will feel more confident about your health when you get some distance from this bc episode - about 2yrs for me each time.As a nurse,we see and know too much,medical wise, which may or may not be a good thing! It's really weird but I am less scared this second bc time around(2010) than the first in 2003. Admitedly it was ebc each time so like you,feel lucky in the "cancer world".Just go with your feelings for now cos in time you'll get that confidence back.
Tonya xx