Down days
It's funny that almost 12 weeks down the track, almost halfway through chemo I feel like I am finally processing this shitty situation.
And I am scared shitless.
I don't want this shadow following me ...
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I am working through those same dark thoughts - it's impossible to lose them completely. But I think I have hit on a way to make them pass a bit quicker.
It's either / or -
1. It never comes back - well done, you've won.
2. It comes back - then you treat it just the way you've treated this time.
either That works, it never comes back, 1 again.
or It comes back, 2 again.
And remember, every day, every year, there are newer and better treatments with greater success rates and less side effects. The longer you are here, the longer you will stay here.
It's not going to make the dark thoughts disappear, but you can take control of them and MAKE them go away each time.
The power of NOW - this moment is all we have. Don't waste too much time thinking about the what ifs, spend all that precious time LIVING.
We are going to make it Dan, I just know we are.
magicmum