Down days

Hey beautiful Dan

I honestly don't know what to say to make you feel better except to hang in there kiddo and YOU WILL GET THRU THIS.  I understand it would be so much harder for you having seen what this journey can do to people first hand day in day out both young and old

Try to remember all the things you would say to your patients to give them encouragement and hope and grab hold of these and go with it.

It is okay to have bad dark days where we are scared as long as every day doesn't become those dark days. If they do get some help.  You need to find light and fight your way back out of that black hole we find ourselves in.  I am scared, if we are all honest I think we have all been scared at one time or another.  It is not possible to go through this journey and not be.

You are lucky in one way for sure and that is you are only half way through chemo and are already able to process this shit we are going through.  I am into my radiotherapy and I still don't have a clue, still feel like I am in a bad dream and i going to wake up, still don't understand what I think of feel about all this crap.  If you have got the insight to have been able to process this and take it all in then you are definitely luckier than me luvly.

I think of you all the time and I am always wishing you well.  I hope your family are coping with all this crap as best as they can as well. 

LOL

Mich xoxoxoxo