Double mastectomy and reconstruction

I just had a double mastectomy May 7 and the nerve pain along with the roller coaster of emotions has finally gotten to me - I am at a loss as to how long this pain will last, how many times will I be drained.  I've read panadol seems to be enough for others but my pain tolerance is so low I don't know what to do.  Also to note I am 46, I have no children, no partner, so just friends who check in on me now and then.  I am not a spinster but looking at myself is the hardest part.  I really need someone to help and I don't know where to turn - my mom and her sister both had breast cancer, my great aunt died of ovarian cancer and I don't really care if I have the gene - it's obvious I think - I opted for the procedure because of the strong family history and having no one to see me through this.  I feel so alone and I hurt all the time - the scars are small and as far as surgical work goes, he did a beautiful job, I just have some ups and downs, and today is obviously a downer :(

thanks for any help or guidance you ladies can give :)

God bless

Jacquie