Hello Sue:) I understand how you are feeling.I was told initially that I 'probably' wouldn't need chemo.I took this as ' you won't need chemo!' When the oncologist called me to say that after looking at everything,she wanted me to have 4 rounds of TC,I was pretty shocked.But do you know what? It wasn't that bad:) I know that a lot of ladies wouldn't agree,but I think that 4 rounds of TC is easier to tolerate than ,say,3fec and then 3 taxol.I am still adamant that attitude and exercise plays a huge part in how the MAJORITY of us cope with chemo.For me,it was the tiredness that floored me the most,and the skin rashes (not really a big deal) changes in food likes/dislikes.Have a great holiday in Canada/Alaska.Our son lives there,and we have been a couple of times .It is absolutely gorgeous.When you come back,you will be physically healed and emotionally ready to start chemo.Take care.CheersxoxRobyn