Distress

Hi Karen - I don't think there's any such thing as 'normal' feelings with BC. You are feeling what you are feeling, so it's legitimate and real. Can understand you feeling so vulnerable, but I think you're better to get the feelings out and talk about them rather than trying to push them down. Otherwise you try to bury them alive, but you don't usually succeed because they haven't really been dealt with. We all live with that nasty little shadow sitting on our shoulders after BC. Yours is probably bigger because of the family history, but this DOES NOT mean you will automatically follow in their paths. You've been through such a tough time with the work issues as well, and now losing 2 relatives and going through all that grief. I think what you're feeling is perfectly understandable - I'm sure I'd be in exactly the same boat. So just keep talking to us - we are all thinking of you. Pam xx.