Distress

Hi Karen, I think what you are feeling is normal.You've lost 2 relatives,so you are grieving and your treatment is finishing soon which can be an anxious time.Maybe you just need to cry and'feel' it all?In time you'll remember your aunt and uncle as they were and not how they died.Last year my mum died of liver cancer and soon after my brotherinlaw died of brain cancer. His death and lead up to was very hard but my mum's death was a good one.She had 14 mths to get everything in order,got to stay in her own bed surrounded by family, nursed and kept out of pain by me.At 81 she wasn't afraid of death and believed she'd join dad whose death she never got over.I still have my sad moments and miss her terribly but am getting on with life.I've had 2 bouts of bc and each time I found it took about 2 years to get confidence back in my health.I would have frequent 'gloom n doom'thoughts but finding a distraction helped eg meditation and my favourite-art therapy.Find some quiet'me' time to nourish your soul. Big hug,Tonya xx