didn't think it could happen again!

Hi msowl

I am happy to share with you on a road we definitely did not ask to be on.  You have already travelled a long and bumpy road you poor thing. 

I also was informed before leaving the hospital after my WLE and SNB that my nodes were clear and it wasn't until I went back for the follow up appointment a few weeks after christmas that I was told "sorry they were wrong and that two of my nodes had micrometastes in them" plus tumour was much bigger than originally thought plus they were unable to get a full clearance around the tumour as it was too close to the chest wall ................I can tell you that major shock set in then and I went thru numerous emotions but still to this day have done minimal crying and asking as to why me.  There is no saying that still might not happen as I don't feel I am emotionally over my journey by a long way.  All I have done through the journey so far is I have been in survival mode and that is slowly reaching an end and then I will probably take a breath and look back over the last 9 1/2  months and assess what has happened to me and my loved ones. 

The plan of attack for me once I was told my shocking unexpected news was a total axillary clearance where they removed another 17 nodes (which were all clear they said), 6 cycles of chemo 3 x FEC and 3 taxotere every 3 weeks and then after a 4 week break from the chemo I went on to 7 weeks (35 treatments) of radiotherapy plus I have recently started on an aramitose inhibitor (Femara) for the next 5 years.  I have only recently finished my last radiotherapy on 5/9 and I am due to go back for my first follow up bilateral mammogram early October. 

So my life has been a whirlwind recently but so has yours.

Keep in touch with us, we are here for you and we understand where you are coming from.  You will go through so many different emotions.  I know I lived in denial for a very long time but got brought back to earth with a thud.  I like you have read and read and read as much information as I can about BC and I feel it has helped me to stay in control.  I have found that I would be lost without my pink sisters on this website though.  I am just recovering from 3 weeks of bronchial pneumonia which I got prior to finishing my radiotherapy and I have missed being in contact with everyone on a daily basis but I am back and hopefully my fatigue will pass and I can continue to be a part of such a wonderful website and beautiful group of ladies.

I hope we can help you through your journey as well.  Good luck, chat soon.

Mich xoxoxo