desmoplastic IDC anyone??

: ) I am so glad I got the my journey kit and found this site.  I think my biggest issue at the moment is that these stages of grief which I have recognized, are not happening in any order and they go between each otehr minute by minute, you know its like all 4 seasons in one day. I dont know if you got the my journey journal or not but it has you circle, on a scale of 1 to 5, how you felt that day, I usually circle three of more of them lol now im smiling and happy but 15 minutes ago I was swearing and upset. I think I get angry as I really do blame the nursing home I am in. I am a paraplegic and I came in here 4 years ago, before that I had 2nd yearly mammograms. I was due for one when I came in here and got a reminder. It never happened though and I get a bit angry cause I think that if I had kept having those mammograms, yes, I would still have got it, but would it be grade 3? and IDC? I doubt it, it would probably have been detected very quickly and been insitu still. I know there is no point being angry now, but it doesn't seem to take anything to make me angry. I am always such a passive person, a doormat my daughter used to say :) shes probably proud of my anger lol