Deep breath....there goes my hair
Well here we go...I knew this was going to happen, but somewhere deep in my heart I was hoping I'd be the weird one that didn't lose my hair. It's day 14 from my first TC chemo treatment. When I woke...
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Hi Mishie,
Strange, isn't it, when you can hear and read something over and over, but it only becomes real when it happens to you. I have just finished AC chemo and will start Taxol chemo on Wednesday, and was told that my hair would fall out 2 weeks after the first round, and that I would cry. It did, but I didn't, just because I am ornery like that. 98% of mine fell out within 3 days, the remaining 2% has strangely hung in there, just enough so that when I am out in the wind I can tell which direction it is blowing!
I think the real issue for me was that now I look like a cancer sufferer, and that can be confronting both for me and my family, and takes away some of the choice I had previously about who to tell (I didn't feel comfortable in a wig).
I have tried to actually remember what it felt like to pull my own hair out, what it felt like sitting in the garage clippering my remaining hair off to a number 4, what it feels like to see the lumps and bumps on my head that haven't seen the light of day since I was 1 year old, and even what it feels like to be the only one in the office wearing a beanie. Why would I want to actually remember these uncomfortable things? Because I hope, want, believe, that this will never happen to me again, and I will never have to feel these things EVER AGAIN. And I hope the same for you.
Keep fighting
Jane