decision made

May you all find the strength you need to get through.  I lived every second of this nightmare with my mum (diagnosed with primary & secondary BC at the same time) for 2 years before making the same decision.  She died in my arms 10 months ago.  The pain has not eased and I know it never will.  For me, it's simply a matter of adjusting to a life without her now.  Going through the endless scans, chemo, meds, fatigue, appointments etc etc is heartbreaking enough.  You are in my thoughts and prayers (even though my faith has somewhat diminished).  May you find comfort in each other and in those around you.  Sending you strength and love.