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Hi Windsrfn, you might find it helpful to learn that a panic attack is your body doing its best to prepare to fight that sabretoothed tiger you are aware is approaching. Humans developed in a dangerous world where the vital dangers were physical. So we switch on  this physiological switch in response to danger, that fires up your adrenelin and cortisol, redirects blood from the brain and digestive system to the muscles, heart and lungs and generally prepares you very well for flight or fight. Your heart starts pumping like mad, you hyperventilate, you get a stomach ache because there is less blood servicing your digestive tract, and you don't think clearly.

That is what a panic attack is. Problem is that most of our problems these days are psychological or relational, and the system really stuffs us for such problems. So we have to calm down the system since it is no use to us. It is switched on chemically and takes time to fade away.

But it is a sign that your alarm-system is actually in good working order, that you are dealing with a major threat, and that you have to focus on doing what will help you survive.

I find that the third week, I start to get shaky, emotionally reactive and easily upset because I am about to let them put poisons into my body again. It is a physical fear, and an accurate recognition of how dangerous this stuff is: to the cancer as well as to the body.

cheers