Day 59
Well, today is my last day in the office for a few weeks as I am starting my chemo treatment on Monday. I am getting TC, 4 cycles. If I'm honest I am absolutely shi**ing myself! I am getting more nervous and anxious as each day passes.
I have a good weekend planned though, and feel like I should really 'live it up' cause there won't be much of that happening in the next few months!
On a positive, and there is always a positive, I have two weeks off work every cycle - who wouldn't like that!
On a personal note I'm starting to really feel strongly about certain people in my life - one way or the other. Some have just been incredible, making meals, regular emails or calls or visits, or even just a text message to see how I am. My best friend is just about to have a baby - literally next week - and she is still concerned about me god bless her. Others have fallen off the face of the planet, and makes me think do they even care at all? Or do I even care for them? Others have remained totally self-absorbed (these are family members so the ties remain regardless!) and negative people, and to be honest I just find myself not wanting to talk with them at all - I think I used to put up with the self-centredness and negativity but now it just annoys the crap out of me!
Anyway, things are actually ok, it's a beautiful day outside and it's going to be a great weekend. x
