Day 50

Hey Annie

I agree it is both good and bad to read lots of things about what you are going to go through shortly.  I was also shitting myself big time.  After your chemo has been administered on that first day you will look back and wonder what was I so scared about.  It is very good though to read all the posts and be very prepared and informed of what you need to help with side effects and other things to get you through.

I found I could not continue to work one of my jobs as it was on a roster system and I could not commit to being able to work when they needed me to so that job has ended until I am well enough to return at this stage and if I want to return to it.  My other job I do from home I was able to continue.  I was unable to exercise as I very unlucky in that the chemo did knock me flat, mainly the Taxotere.(I have bounced back now though :-)  I have read that it is a major boost for you if you can still do any form of exercise through your chemo time.  I am now back in to walking and thoroughly enjoying it and I am very grateful I am able to do that now.

I don't believe my life will change dramatically when i return home in another week or so UNLESS I WANT IT TO.  I will go back to doing the same old things I used to do but only if I wan.  I am the same person I was before but maybe more compassionate, strong, caring and understanding and all those other wonderful things I have picked up while on this journey.  I know I will walk away from it with a new outlook on life and I will be an even better person because of it. i will have made some beautiful new friends that I cherish and my loved ones and living my life will mean so much more to me.

It is an excellent thing that you are enjoying the gym and you will go in to your chemo healthy and strong which will be a big benefit for you.

It sounds like you have a lot of love and support around you which will definitely help you get through this. 

You will deal with being sick, losing your hair and all those other horrible things we have to bear on this crappy journey and you will come out the other side like we all have I am sure, stronger and wiser.

Good luck on your journey, your pink sisters will be travelling the road with you so call on us any time you need.

LOL

Mich xoxoxo