Day 5 after 2nd FEC & struggling

Hi

There is nothing shallow about feeling sad re your hairloss.

I havent started my chemo yet and that is one thing I am dreading! I too am normally a happy relaxed person but we are on a road that challenges so many parts of us in ways we have never experienced!

I was in a coffee shop with a friend and a lady walked in who was clearly undergoing chemo and she had a long headscarf on and I found myself in tears over my coffee!!

I agree you have to just go with the flow of where you are and not beat yourself up!

I think being a mum of 2 young girls does make it hard - my eldest daughter turned 13 last weekend and i found myself feeling very upset that this special birthday was in the middle of my cancer drama!

I wasnt able to do the usual - but you know she had a great time bowling with a few friends and she and I went on a shopping spree together ( a short one) and she said she had a great time.

You just have to do the best you can within your circumstances - we didnt choose this and our children know that!

I think as long as we keep commuicating and we have to be real - my youngest is dreading me losing my hair but we will cope as best we can.

It is very much an emotional rollercoaster and as my husband said part of the challenge is there is no steering wheel!!

I know I still have the challenges of chemo ahead and I will be on here whinging too soon - dont worry!!

Deep breaths and one day at a time xx

Debsx