Christmas

poor penny, having chemo right on xmas ! and your hair is about to fall out also? i was terrified of my hair falling out. it thinned over chemo and i ended up looking odd with my cap on, but it was summer, so head was not cold. ( take a few photos ) my family did not mind what i looked like. i did not wear a turban at  all. i bought a short brown  wig, but only wore it once! i just wore the cap and did shopping etc, then home mostly.

everyone is different. if you feel up to going to ronan keating in february, then go. i wondered at the time, how i would get through it all, but i did. you will too, but it may not have " hit " you yet, and the treatments can take a toll, so be kind to yourself for a year or two..... till you adjust, is my advice.

 the emotional journey is as important as the physical. i think i might have been in " denial " about some things, and was reluctant to acknowledge, even to myself, at the time.

i did eventually, and now, some years down the track i feel life is chugging along  mostly, and back to a new normal. it has been enriched also, but i have also had some struggles.

you will have ups and downs, meet new people, maybe cry a lot, especially in the beginning, but hoping you will also have some laughs as well. things do settle down in time, but to feel overwhelmed / shocked/ angry/ sad, and other emotions, is normal, as your life is put on hold.

do ask,  and accept help when needed. go with how you feel. some days will be harder that others, as the chemo can effect you  physically and emotionally.

take it day by day.. it made sense, and i use it to this day.

 all the best, kathy.