Chemo

Hi all Chemo.... The c word that has given me more sleepless nights than that other c word. I too find it the most difficult thing to deal with... Having to be poisoned and made sick to be better. I had multiple cancers in both breasts so chemo and radiation was a given. I had a bilateral masectomy and bilateral clearance with 6/22 and 2/21 involvement. I started chemo on Friday 13th January. I had 4 three weekly cycles of AC. I won't lie... I found it very difficult with 3 hospital admissions including bilateral lung clots... It was doable but quite challenging. I have had 2/12 weekly taxols so far and found them so far to be much kinder to my body and mind. Days 3 and 4 I have had bone pain but I feel much clearer in the head on taxol. I am getting more out of breath after each cycle and feel constantly dehydrated on taxol but it is all doable. I try and remember that 6 mOnths of feeling ordinary is a small period of my life and if it gives me the best chance of a positive outcome I have to do it. I still find lots to smile and laugh about each day. Listen to your body and mind... Rest when you need to, cry when you need to. It's the fear of the unknown and loosing that bit of control that scares me. Take care Mel xxxxxx