I don't envy your choice, @Della - you say
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but if i choose chemo and cancer come back, i also will question it no point to choose chemo at first...
None of us know what the future holds - but what I DO know is that my husband and I had 11 wonderful years after his first lot of chemo (including him competing internationally again in triathlons) before he had a recurrence (when 75% of people with his cancer normally don't survive 5 years, even with surgery & chemo.) When he WAS diagnosed with recurrence earlier this year, I didn't query the chemo - I basically said 'F**k' and we just got on with it, and continue to do so.
You are worried about possible damage from the chemo and if there is an unknown cancer it may make worse .... when in reality, the chemo should mop that up as well! That's why they give chemo - to mop up those 'random cancer cells' that may be circulating in the body ....
Think of it as D Day at the end of WW2 .... they didn't send in a handful of troops ... they sent in the whole bloody army, navy & airforce .... they chucked everything they had at 'the enemy' - and your Breast Cancer is 'the enemy' ..... and that is the decision you need to make. Do you send in 'some troops' or 'all of them'?
take care & all the best xx