@Emeraldgreen - these are tough decisions to make and sounds like you have a great treating team who are advising in your interests. Chemotherapy is tough but as these other ladies have said not everyone gets all the side effects short or longer term. I am currently on the chemo journey, and your mind does play tricks initially about what am I getting from this. My mantra has been I choose life and I remind myself of this when it is tough going - I make this choice not just for me, for my family and friends - so I am taking all treatment on offer. I wish you all the best in as you weigh everything up and make your decision.