I will just say welcome,and I want to reassure you that the fear of chemo is worse than the actual chemo itself ,I believe.I was where you are 6 months ago,and I have just finished my treatment,and feel really well:) I don't want to comment on the chemo that you are having,because I only had Docetaxel.Some ladies find it causes joint and bone pain but for me the side effects were almost nothing,except for tiredness from days 5to 9 after each round.It was very doable:) I didn't have a portacath,but maybe with 6 rounds and a fear of needles,it might be a good thing.I am sure that other ladies with experience in this will be here later to advise and support you.This network is the best,and there is someone here 24/7 if you need a chat:) Take care.xoxoRobyn