Chemo .. ... a necessary evil...??.

Thanks Christine,

I think that as  Registered Nurse  -  am aware of the toxicity of Chemo but also aware that Trip Neg has nothing else its Chemo or Bust.. Sorry you are having such a hard time, i have so much support and so many other blessings, I met with a friend who is 7 years post Trip Neg BC and she has given me a "real" insight into what is up ahead - But I have also held many a patients hands - had many families lean on me crying uncontrollably on my shoulder.. many screams from parents of small children - telling them you can do this.. but as I am now at the starting line - it is very difficult  - Cancer sucks... its unfair, its cruel,,,  but it is so good to reach out to people like yourself who are so kind and supportive and offer so much advice about your own experience through this journey.

I know that I can do this, I am positive person, have a lot of medical training, beautiful supportive family, am young, I know the system, know medically what is ahead.. but Christine, ..... through all this, I still wake at night and cry uncontrollably, I am afraid, feel guilty, i want to be around for my kids, did I do something, no family history.... I need time to comprehend what has occured  ..... but slowly I am coming to peace with this all. I have two options .. fall in a heap and do nothing or stand up and do something  - i have chosen the latter.

Sending you a huge hug, your day seems to have started off very hard :-( 

regards

L