@kmakm...........FARK!! where to start...oh - San Francisco. Your spit has gone to San Fran! That's pretty cool.:#
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zftcZYdOl3YMy favourite San Fran song.....
"I've been high. I've been low.
I've been yes and I've been oh hell no."
And I guess that is just what I am trying to say. This BC shitfest is one hell of a ride - highs and lows and this is a fairly deep low right here.
Genetic testing would be a scary thing no doubt. I am not even sure where to start with that, should I or shouldn't I? I have one aunty (dad's sister) that had E+ BC 20 years ago at 57 (she is still with us) and no one seems interested that I have now had it. Still, I worry for Charlotte and myself, considering the breast I've left intact.
Kate, there seem to be some good things there that I picked up from your post.
Firstly, holy fuck - what? You can possibly have the WRONG chemo? Now just take a minute to really absorb that. You had the RIGHT chemo - high fuckin' FIVE to that Dearest!! Imagine sitting there now with the alternative? Nasty!
Secondly. the geneticists that you have seen have said similar/same things. This is good - getting the same feedback and info, rather than contradictory and confusing ifs and buts.
In for a penny, in for a pound - your genes are getting the works like when the Wizard of Oz characters turn up at The Emerald City and get the full going over. :o
Tears are exhausting. I always feel completely broken when I've had teary days. There is a heck of a lot going on for you at the moment and tears are your release valve at the moment, like a whistling pressure cooker. All of that stress and anxiety, fear and worry, grief and heartbreak need to come out somehow. Keep whistling........release the pressure.
BIG HUGS (and even HIMUGS -hee hee) from across the Nullarbor.
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