Hi Karen :-)
Whinge all you want !
Yes, it is a VERY good thing that you are letting the tears flow as you certainly do not want that stress to build up internally any more than you have to.
I am sorry to read the terrible side effects from what should be simple surgery.
Are you in the public or private system ? Suggest you contact your surgeon at his rooms (even if you have to pay more - you are worth it) and see if there are any alternatives to helping you get through.
Stay on this site as someone will have been where you are and may be able to offer specific advice.
Thinking of you - sending big cyber hugs and boxes of tissues !
Summer :-)