Thank you Paula. I will try those things and see how I go. At the moment I am just trying to focus on getting through the next few days. Tomorrow is my sons 13th birthday and we are leaving for brisbane, it sucks. Last year on his birthday, I had to leave for Townsville to complete my rads. I hope I can take some of the positivity from the site and use it. Yesterday, I was in a really bad place but today I feel a little better. I have everything crossed that the spot on my liver is nothing and that my lymph nodes have been spared, again. The rest, I can deal with (I think). I have met with Janine the breast care nurse and she is lovely. She keeps telling me that everything is treatable, so I have to focus on that, and the a fact that I want to see my kids grow up. I was willing to take one for the team, but two, jeez that's stretching the friendship! Xoxo