YES,you can do it again and hopefully,like me you'll be ok again.I'm so sorry to hear you have bc again -you and your kids are so young,it's not fair.Like you,I had a lumpectomy,full node clearance(clear margins,clear nodes) followed by radiation back in 2003-I was 47 yrs old.. The cancer came back 7 years later(2010)in the very same spot so had to have a mastectomy then chemo and now on Tamoxifen. When I got the recurrence,I had to have full body and bone scans and luckily,I got the all clear.So it was classed as early bc again.I have to say that I now have reservations about lumpectomies and radiation.I've heard of alot of ladies like us.If I want a reconstruction later then I can only have a Diep flap.I seem to be fine now but the worry is always there in the back of your mind.You are stronger than you think and you'll do what you have to do.It will be hard to be away from your family for 2 weeks.Where are you having your surgery?Perhaps some of your pink sisters on this network might live close by? The surgery is similar to a lumpectomy-painwise,recoverywise,drainwise.Please blog back if you have any questions.I know you would be scared and anxious but suicidal?really???-don't scream,save your energy for what's to come.If it's early bc again Deb,then you are going to be ok like many of us here who've had a recurrence in the same breast. Sending hugs,Tonya xx