Vinn,
Your post actually reduced me to tears, I hear and feel your pain, because its mine too. The Psychologist is a great start! Its just so complex and nobody understands that unless you go through it. Hang in there, and keep talking, we're all listening. Even when we have no clue how things can get better or improve, I believe in my heart they do...every day I find a small reason amongst the pain and heartache...that I am grateful for small things. Thats all that gets me through right now...its a tough gig!!! but I believe only the strong get thrown into this roller coaster. Its not selfish, Ive come to learn your kids are not right if you aren't?? youre their hub?? right? BUT...you have to be right first and Ive learnt putting me first sometimes is teaching my kids self care and that Im important too...dont beat yourself up over that. Youre actually doing the best you can! So one step at a time...I promise you things will improve. xo
Melinda