body pain after chemo

thanks guys for your support. Tonite I am feeling so totally useless like I should just disappear. I rode my bike for an hour tonite just to feel normal for one hour and forget about having cancer. Got off the bike and hardly had the strength to get it off the wind trainer. So damn frustrating when I was so fit before. My head is just not in the right space. I'm sitting here typing feeling like I am on fire (thanks to be pushed into menopause by the chemo). I am sick and tired of being stressed, tense and agitated all the time. I hate my kids seeing me like this. It is like I just want to be in this pit but at the same time I don't want to be in it and while in it, I have everyone throwing things at me, loading me up with more and more to deal with.
Yes and I too am at the stage where the chemo is over, the operations are over and I look ok, which to everyone means I am fine. In fact I have everyone telling me how good I look for someone that has been through chemo, well I should as I have been downing over 20 pills a day from my natropath to support my body and detox it while going through treatment. The pills are helping me physically but not emotionally and there is only so much vitamins, minerals and detox stuff can do when it is up against  powerful drugs such as chemo and radiation.
I could go on but I am sure you all know where I am coming from. I will hang in there as I have 2 kids 2 cats and a rabbit that need me. If it was not for them, I don't know!!!
Yes I agree it will get better and that's why I too am hanging in by a thread. I do need to focus on me but I feel selfish doing so as I should be handling this and I am disappointed in myself for not handling this situation better. I feel like I totally screwed up having breast cancer.
I am seeing a psychologist who is good to talk to, to get things off my chest.