Hi Kerry, I have just read your post and I am sending you loving thoughts. Your past posts have helped me so many times. Thank you for being so beautifully honest and sharing your journey. Hang in there girlfirend! And know that you are not alone with the depression. After my last reconstruction surgery in nov I expected to feel the same way as you. However much to my surprise I hit a rock bottom and also felt that not so lucky, lucky feeling. I have reflected on this and I have come to realise that the surgery, general anaethestic and past surgeries bring lots of painful stuff up. This perspective did change and the sun rose again. This was such a surprise to me that I have written in my diary to remind myself of these feelings so I feel normal and know that this time will pass. We are such brave women negotiating unchartered water and need to remind each other of this. Thank you for the opportunity to support you as you have me. Sealmaiden
xxoo