Hi Laura,
How are you huny? Hey, it's ok to feel any of the emotions that are associated with this terrible disease??? Do not feel guilty and yes your friends are having trouble understanding what you are going through. They will support you the best way they know how, which ever way that is? And yes they will say the wrong thing, or do the wrong thing, but just know they are there for support. If they love you regardless of your illness, then they are true friends. My friends did not know how to talk to me also, and some just asked questions about treatment etc. It is perfectly normal for them to be curious huny, just love them for their loyalty and forgive them for their insensitivity, because it is your friends and family who will get you over this hurdle in your life. And just remember to keep crossing the days off the calendar ok?
It does get better, and you will feel better too. it just takes time huny ok? Sending you a big hug and wishing you the best in your cancer journey, just remember you're a hero for what you are going through!!! Don't EVER forget that ok??? Take care always and best of luck XXX Mia.