Yes definitely going public. Much as I would like to have a spare 18,000 just lying around I think I could find plenty of other things to spend it on! Yes I have 3 boys who I love dearly but have a particular bond with the 17 year old . I don't think I could have made him stay at home if I had wanted too. He was only 13 when I was diagnosed but grew up pretty quickly and really was my rock then and now I don't know what I would have done without him some days my husband went to pieces a little and then decided he would try to do everything so often it was just Tim there to hold my hand. X