Bi Lateral Mastectomy & Laptorso Op

Hi Melinda , anxiety has been the biggest hurdle for me. Funny thing was, 3 mth prior to getting bc, I went to my local hospital to get a iron transfusion as my iron is always low and they thought it would help. 3secs into the procedure I had a anaphylactic reaction to it. For the next 1/2 hr they had to correct only to over correct my heart rate going from to fast to to slow. I couldn't get air and I thought I was going to die right there. Just before I was about tO pass out I said to them" please" I have kids!!! Thankfully I didn't die, but did have to spend that night in hosi as they couldn't get my heart rate down.then the painic attacks started, any funny feeling in my body I thought it was coming back.Or I was convinced they had damaged my heart. So I started see a psych to help with the anxiety, and panic attacks. I was in a bad place for a few weeks, not being able to take the kids to school,etc. I worked really hard to get myself back on track, which I did.i thought I'd been to hell and back, little did I know what was about to unfold.shortly after I was diagnosed with bc and had to endure the panic of all those needles and dyes and chemo!!! Thankfully I was really honest with the team and with a few tears I got through it. But I must say, although I have those skills know, I liken anxiety like a pot of boiling water. Sometimes it's just luek warm and other time it might start bubbling. My kids are 6and 8 they were 4and 6 when diag. I must say it was difficult with the chemo and radio. We live in the country so my dad few down with me to have chemo, when we came home my parents would look after the kids for us. My husbands work was great. Same with radio, my mum and I would fly down on a Monday morn , do a week of radio then fly home on a fri night to spend the weekend with my family. This is we're it gets tricky, my oldest son has type 1 diabetes.... Not sure if u r aware of this disease. Although he is very fit, this is a autoimmune disease that requires constant servielence day and night. This is my job, I don't have a job, my day is made up of going to school for testing and working out the insulin for the day. It's not a job I could give to my parents, although its fairly easy for me. It's actually quite complex.so leaving them for 3 wks is out+ I couldn't go that long without seeing them. I'm sure we would work it out but unlike the radio , where they would cry on the phone every night. Which broke my heart!! I would have to pull them out of school , I think !! Xx wow that was long .. Lol