OH I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN!
Parenting is the HARDEST job in the world, and it's made even more difficult by BC or I guess any Cancer!! ( Cancer really dies sux, & it most certainly doesn't take peoples lives etc into account, just attacks!)
I have found many times that I'm dealing with 2 things, one being BC, but 2 I'm learning how to be a mum! For so long especially after my separation I got so over involved with work, that I really stopped being a mum, I let my family take over, which made it really hard during Chemo, because that's when it hit me, who will raise them the way I want them to be raised...It's so hard to try & mould them into young adults then adults these days with everything that surrounds us. I tend to loose it still with my girls, especially when have those tired days, but each day it's getting better.
A for dealing with a partner and BC I cannot speak from experience, but I remember what it was like, and if I could go back and change 1 thing it would be to have a better communication relationship between us TWO! yes we spoke about the kids, work and that about it...Never about US!! I really think that can make a huge diff & as Leonie said her hubby let's his guard down while having a chat, it can really release sooooo much and it begins to change us.
Good luck with your hubby & kids, it's not easy, but I'm sure you are an amazing, fabulous, loving mother and partner...
We are all allowed a bad day and VENTING is ESSENTIAL, especially when there are such wonderful ladies here to help each other out
Xxx