Anyone awake? 2nd chemo today & I can’t sleep re anxiety

Yay, someone is awake. 
Thank you Kiwi Angel. My anxiety is awful atm. I’m about to try sleeping again ...... I just did 4 sudoku puzzles to try to settle my brain .... they sometimes help lol
I keep telling myself that they’ll be on top of things this time & I am now on blood thinners ....... but it’s always the unknown & ‘what if’. I think it was the 2nd infection & the clots that did my head in. I’ve had a clot in my lung many years ago .... it brought it all back. I never want to go through that ever again.