Andrea66

Hi Andrea,

it is so confronting when you are told one thing and another thing happens. You get your head around what to expect and then that is blown completely out of the water. It's amazing though, once you are over the surgeries and you know exactly what you are dealing with, you just seem to put your head down and do what you have to. Just do one day at a time and one appointment at a time.  Cancer does knock your confidence. I think it is the confidence in your own body. It has let you down.  It's ok to be a quivering jelly. It's ok to be scared. They are all normal reactions to what you at going through. The fact is you will get through this!  You have no choice.  I used to get angry when people would say I was an inspiration or brave as I was just doing what I had to to survive. It's not easy going but you will get there. My mantra was short term pain for long term gain.  Be prepared that you still may have some unexpected hurdles as you go along. You are doing what you need to to get well. Hang in there. Take care. Karen xox