Am I normal?
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It seems you are indeed not weird or alone @Joannie! Like others I haven't been angry about my de novo met bc -I thought and feel why am I any different to anyone else who gets this news. After my first 8 months of treatment when the dust had settled a bit and the immediate issues were over I did hit a wall. My onc is not keen for me to travel overseas until I get a bit stable and while I am fine with that for now not feeling great at times and -getting to see parts of our great land I haven't seen.
I did find I was getting really p***d off with feeling like my normal possibilities were shrinking. In the past if I wanted to plan a trip I would sometime ahead. I had some really good sessions with the skilled counsellor BCNA offers by phone for free 5 sessions -thank you so much BCNA for that.
My partner and I now plan trips but build in options and back out if we need them. Next year maybe I will get overseas but having met bc means I need to choose destinations with reciprocal health agreements or risk getting sick with no medical cover -not willing to do that. Sorry -that is all a bit long winded! I guess there are some things that make me very angry -like the state of our world but not having cancer even if it has meant a rethinking of my way of being in the world. I feel blessed to have a wonderful partner, family and close friends and access to high quality health care. Some days are really rubbish like today when I am exhausted after 7 days of Xeloda and my AI are making me ache like hell. But hey I now have 14 days break of Xeloda -there is often a blessing around the corner! Go well @Joannie
I did find I was getting really p***d off with feeling like my normal possibilities were shrinking. In the past if I wanted to plan a trip I would sometime ahead. I had some really good sessions with the skilled counsellor BCNA offers by phone for free 5 sessions -thank you so much BCNA for that.
My partner and I now plan trips but build in options and back out if we need them. Next year maybe I will get overseas but having met bc means I need to choose destinations with reciprocal health agreements or risk getting sick with no medical cover -not willing to do that. Sorry -that is all a bit long winded! I guess there are some things that make me very angry -like the state of our world but not having cancer even if it has meant a rethinking of my way of being in the world. I feel blessed to have a wonderful partner, family and close friends and access to high quality health care. Some days are really rubbish like today when I am exhausted after 7 days of Xeloda and my AI are making me ache like hell. But hey I now have 14 days break of Xeloda -there is often a blessing around the corner! Go well @Joannie