Am I normal?

I don't think that there are any right or wrong emotions to feel although as you would know from your working experience there are the expected staging of emotions for grief.  Although, I haven't worked in the field, I've too much personal experience in dealing with death and trauma around me.  With this, I have certainly felt anger and absolute white-hot rage but not so much for "why me?" (although I'm no saint and that has certainly featured) - it's more directed at the cancer itself and the changes that it has forced on me.  Some days I'm so angry, I could bite!  Other times, I'm wallowing in despair.  But mostly it's about coping with the fallout of the cancer and I'm really focusing on the hope that this will pass as I move through treatment.