Hi @Cara_maree, welcome to this forum of support and understanding on what you are facing and going through, we here understand.
First of all YOU CAN DO THIS , be positive. You can kick this cancer shit to the curb.
I have just recently finished all my treatment late last year, so it’s very fresh in my mind.
Most people I have spoken with throughout my journey , we all had the same outcome once we had our results come back from pathology after surgery including myself, things weren’t exactly what we were told at first.
Nothing is really correct until those results come back after being under the microscope.
Think positive, now the specialists know what they are dealing with you will get the best treatment.
Do things that make you happy and to also take your mind of things, be around positive people, I attended a meditation and mindfulness class when I was first diagnosed and was very beneficial to me, threw myself into housework, dancing and singing whilst doing so, prepare some meals and freeze ready for when you start treatment.
When you are feeling overwhelmed take in deep breaths hold for 5 and exhale for 5, bring yourself back to the here and now, gradually build up as you are able to, listen to relaxation music especially at night time before sleep, lavender drops on the corners of your pillow. Having a good night sleep you will find that you can cope throughout the day better.
One day at a time.
If you have any questions please don’t hesitate to ask.
We are all here for you.
Sending virtual hugs and sending positive vibes your way... x
