It all sounds perfectly normal to me! My psych says let the anger out as long as it's safe for you and anyone else around you. My car has heard a few anguished furious screams and f bombs and the poor old steering wheel has copped a beating from time to time! I also belted up my basin one time. Screaming into a pillow is a good standby. I seem to recall @JJ70 frightening her dog one day with an outburst of anger!
Ultimately I don't think it's a bad thing if your kids see you angry and upset. They learn empathy, and come to understand that you are a human with feelings as well. Your three year old sounds like an angel. Cuddles on the couch (as long as there aren't germs) are a good thing to do during chemo.
However, a counsellor is really helpful to assist in working through these things. It's f*****g unfair to have cancer. You get to own your rage, but don't get stuck in it. Big (but wary! ;)) hug, K xox
