@Sister .... you're feeling ill and nauseous, you're at a low ebb right now ...... remember that ...... and on top of that you've got the family and renovations going on all around you. It's so normal to feel like you do and it's ok. Have a good cry , it will help ...... acknowledge youre allowed to feel like this ..... get it all out. Know that im thinking of you today as are countless others and know that what you've been through is traumatic, be kind to yourself....... sending you special hugs and back rubs. Xxxxxx