@Sister u are so allowed a wallow - everyone has though days and like u I feel like my life is currently on hold until I’m through chemo and then anxious about how I will go on tamoxifen and then concerns about recurrence. U will get through this - it’s the final one and talking to someone will be so great. I’m considering doing the same thing after chemo as I am one that tends to bottle things up during time of stress to get through it and then might lose the plot when everything calms down. Thinking of u and big hugs - we are all here for u xoxoxoxo