A mid summers' night dream
Morning Troopers!
From today's Facebook blog... Hope you are all sailing along smoothly.....
DREAMS - are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur usually involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.....
Well, I had a crap nights sleep! It took me a while to actually fall asleep and when I finally did, my night was filled with flickering images, current scenarios replayed, people from my past and loved ones that are no longer with us.....Dreams are powerful things and I take careful notice of their messages. Last night was a perfect mini "trailer" for my life at the moment, jumping from my experience so far, every piece of information I have to process to the soothing reassurance from loved ones that all will be OK.. (Thank you M.I.L heart emoticon, Yes, "sei forte"...that I am! )
I couldn't get comfortable at first, mainly because I can't lie on my right side, as a result my left side aches and protests all night long and then most of the next day. I can't really sleep on my back either, I feel like I'm choking, but have tried just to give the left side of my body a break...I REALLY miss sleeping on my stomach!
It's only early days yet and this bitch has already taken everyday things away from me....Yes, I know that things will get easier as I heal from my surgeries, but it would be nice to do my hair properly (while I still have it!) I also miss soaking in a nice hot bath..but this is also something I will not be able to do for quite a while yet....My body feels like its been in a boxing match at the moment and a nice soak would be sooooo good! I miss drawing, I'm annoyed about not being able to hang out the clothes and pick things up properly, or even vacuum, sounds so silly right? It's weird how much you take for granted when you can't do even the most mundane of tasks....but I soldier on, I have to move but when I do attempt these things, I have to stop and rest, my arms get so tired real quickly......impatience is creeping in again!
I don't even know if I have the right to complain about such silly things, but it is frustrating none of the less.....Oh well, tomorrow is another day.... .
So today, I will be grateful...
Grateful that I can go outside and sit in the sun if I choose, grateful for the small things, grateful that I have an amazing husband and family, grateful I have all of you supporting me...and grateful I have Angels above looking out for me....
Love and light
-Tracy
Xx
