A little update :)

I too had similar feelings at the beginning of my treatment. Everything happened within a very short space of time and my world turned upside down. I felt like my old life was suddenly over and I had this different one to come to terms with. At first it felt like I had no control but once you know more about your diagnosis and treatment you start to lose that out of control feeling.

There were two advantages, as I saw it, to having everything happen quickly. First you did not have too long sitting around thinking about what was going to happen next. Secondly it meant that treatment would be finished earlier and I could begin to recover. I cannot believe that I am almost finished. Surgery and 18 weeks chemo done and only 10 more radiotherapy treatments! Then I get to find out what hormone therapy will be like for me.

We are moving into our new house this week and I see this as a beginning of the next stage of life. Recovering and adjusting to life post breast cancer.Just keep on taking it one step at a time. Give yourself little rewards after each chemo and before you know it you will be over the worst of this treatment.

You will not regret the port. I never had one and even though my veins survived, it was the worst part of having chemo for me. Getting the cannula in each time was nerve racking and usually took more than one go despite being well hydrated etc. You really start to feel like a pin cushion after a while!

I can see you are so much calmer and stronger now, Jodie. I am sure you will handle chemo just like you have got through everything else so far. Soon you will be looking back on it like I am and be amazed at how strong you are. Sending you lots of good vibes for Chemo and hope you don't have too many side effects. :) Deanne xxxx