I understand exactly what you mean when you say you are worrying for your family.I am up to 4th round of chemo,and had a mastectomy almost 3 months ago now.In the beginning,after the initial shock,I put all that reading stuff away in my cupboard,but as time has gone on,I have realised that our life has changed at the moment.My husband and daughter have been incredibly strong ,and we have had some very good talks about how they are feeling.I have come to realise,that my husband didn't know how to help me when I was down.He said,"I don't know what to do".So out of all this,we have definitely grown closer .We communicate our feelings about BC and it's affect on our family,on a daily basis.There really is no getting away from it,so for us,it's about adjusting our life at present,and living with it.We talk more,we walk together,we are more tolerant of each other,and I guess we appreciate each other more.(not that we didn't before,but it's different now).I just wanted to reply to your comment on hats and turbans.I did the same thing!My daughter ordered me so many,and each day for about a fortnight,we would have a courier knocking on our door!I also had my head shaved,on the advice of my oncologist.I did it one week before chemo,and it was the best thing for me,to do it that way.Hope you are feeling a bit more upbeat today Joy.There will be lots more ups and downs,but it will come to an end.:) Take care..xoxo. Robyn