2nd chemo

I'm sure you documenting your chemo experience will help those that are following. But it's great to keep up with your progress too as one who has gone before. Sorry that the yucky mouth has returned though. I remember that! And my taste disappearing, most things tasted like cardboard and very bland so I craved salt like it was going out of fashion. Tomatoes were one of the few things that I could taste so I ate them by the bucket load. It's funny that my sense of smell didn't disappear though. I could smell food and wanted to eat it but when I did I could taste it :( Hair loss, hmmmmm. I'm in two minds about that. It's been great not to have to bother about cuts and colours and I haven't used a blow dryer in ten months. Saved a lot of money. I didn't bother about a wig either which is one of the first things I went out to buy before I started chemo but ended up not getting any at the time. I didn't feel I looked like me at all and this made me feel uncomfortable somehow. I ended up just wearing scarves and made them look as interesting as I could, contrasting colours and making nice flowers by curling up the ends. I won't know what to do with all my scarves once my hair has grown enough. It's growing in nicely but it's still too short for me to feel confident about going without. My husband says the scarves are like a security blanket, I'll probably trail them about behind me before I am weened off them :) I said I didn't like the wigs because I didn't look like me but now that my hair IS growing back, I still don't look like I did before so I do feel the loss of my hair and probably grieve for that more than my breasts oddly enough. I guess for me my hair was my identity. Well I'll just have to get used to the new look won't I. Hopefully you'll be on the up in a few days Robyn and not feeling so tired even though your immunity will be down. Then the next week will be even better just in time for your next round! Oh well, you can look at it as 'another one bites the dust'. Rest up, take care and be kind to yourself. Love Janey xxx