2 nd jan 2011

well after a few days with hubby away on a fishing trip i have had a chance to sit back and take a breath and absorb how i am feeling ....its been an emotional few weeks, i must admit i think the first thing i have realised is CANCER is just a word, its not an automatic death sentence, even though i think thats the main perception . watching the faces of my friends and family it does hurt me to think they just don't know what to say but honestly i think im going to be ok i don't doubt its going to be tough going but anyone that knows me knows i have been through worse ........ of cause i have a lot of questions and im spending a lot of my me time researching and looking for people that have gone through this before to give me as much information as possible so i can be as prepared as i can be. i do like to talk about it but that doesn't necessarily mean im worrying or panicking .
this blog is a good way of just saying whatever comes into my head without making everyone think im going crazy ..... gagagaga