I feel your pain. It is very daunting to be told you have BC. I was first diagnosed in Oct 2006 and have just on 20-12-10 been told that I have it back via a lymph node. I have had the lymph node removed and am waiting for my appointments in Brisbane to see the medical oncologist and the radiation oncologist. Back 4 years ago I had a lumpectomy, radiation and was put on Tamoxifen. This time I have been changed over to Arimidex, will have further radiation and most likely chemo as the tumour had escaped out of the lymph node. Yes it is scary reading all about the disease but I found first time around that I needed to know everything so that I had the choice of making my own decisions. You look like you have a loving family by your side - this is a great start!!!! My family is fantastic but they are still realling from this new diagnosis. Life goes on though. The best information I was given the first time around was = one day at a time. I enoy every minute of every day and will continue to do so. Since being re=diagnosed I have taken on the attitude that I will deal with what I have to deal with and get on with life. Sure our plans have been put on hold but only for a while until I am free of the treatment. Live life now and enjoy what you have. Your friends on this site are always there for you. Please feel free to make me a contact so that we can progress through this together. XLeonie