Thanks Chris,
Everyone handles their diagnosis differently. I had some really crappy days over the past year. I have thrown tantrums i have cried for hours on end about my scars and i have considered leaving my husband many many times.
I have found most comfort and support through my BCNA family. I have found that its only these women that truely understand what we have been through. It was nice to talk to another lady who explained a little bit about our husbands that i was being to selfish to really see.
Its hard to find some positives in all of this. Thats why i like talking to other women, if i can make some one feel better or less anxious thats my positive. I have also finished my treatment and its pretty scarry being all alone after such intense monitoring.
I have just recently realised though that i am happier within my self than i have ever been and i can now look back and appreciate my strength and courage.
Your time will come when things are slowing down and you actually have the chance to reflect on what you have been through. You will be amazed at what you have done and the strength within your self you probably never knew you had.
I agree that another breast cancer scare would not help how you are feeling. It must be scarry and bring back alot of old feelings. I donot know what i would do if i got a secondary cancer. It is something i try not to think about it doesnot deserve my head space.
We should catch up and celebrate your anniversary when it rolls around.
Danielle xx
