:-(

I am overwhelmed with sadness and totally shocked.......Tuesday's results revealed small cancer spots on my lungs. I am totally devasated and can't stop crying...I am secretly hoping to wake up from this nightmare....but i know this wont be the case. I am only 43 years of age, a sole parent with a 13 year old daughter....I am a good person....I have never drank, taken drugs, smoked etc, and no cancer in my family history. I have led a healthy life until breast cancer entered my life in 2008. I just dont understand why this is happening to me (or any of us for that matter)...it is just so unfair.

Bone scans will be done on Tuesday, with Psychologist appointment on Thursday to help me cope. Then treatment starts on 18th October. The spots are too small to operate on, so it looks like chemo, herceptin and a change of hormone tablets will be the go. I can only hold on to the hope that the new treatment will work, and the cancer will be controlled or perhaps I will even go into remission. I am so frightened and feel so alone, even though I have family and good friends to support me. I am terrified to click on the secondary cancer part of this site...for fear of what i might find there. At the moment my head is in the sand....I am totally in shock....

Thank you to all you wonderful ladies who have sent best wishes for my Tuesday 4th October results appointment...I wish I had better news :-( x