Tomorrow is day

Hi @Bowie I had a double mastectomy with node removal on the 9th of March. I went through all the feelings you have been feeling but I felt them, reacted then let them go and did not revisit. I turned my focus onto the fact that this surgery is saving my life. That when I wake up from this surgery I am cancer free. This is the first step to a cancer free future. When I did wake up after surgery I literally could not believe how well I felt. Remember when they remove the breasts they remove all the breast tissue which means they also remove all the nerves in the tissue so you actually have no feeling so no pain. I was off the big pain killers by the second day. 
With regards to being on your own I am surrounded by people my husband, 2 small children, my parents and friends but still feel very lonely and alone at times. It seems to be the nature of the beast so don't let that cause you any extra anxiety. I promise you that you will be ok and by this time tomorrow it will all be over and you are one step closer to being cancer free. Stay positive you can do this! Sending big love and strength to you. I am a few weeks ahead of you and actually have my first chemo session tomorrow so we can keep each other going on this shit journey! Xxx